I don't know how to not love you, I only know how to not let you go.
hais, goodbye to my perfectly nice hair.
im redying black ):
kena caught by mr.y for th second time, send back home.
sian.
i went to sch just to see you, not even 2 hours, home sweet home.
wonder what you doing right now...
hais, im having a mental breakdown.
i was crying out loud, thank god neighbour didnt call woodbrigde.
hais, im very disappointed.
lets fake a smile to read this:
i want to be her.
shes nice, shes cute, shes every guys dream.
im exactly th opposite.
i keep on crying, yet nothing change me.
even if i have to knock my head against th wall, i would be uglier.
nothing is perfect in me.
everytime something happen to you, i wasnt there.
utterly disappointed because i only want to see him and yet, a chance lose.
every little moment i have with her was nice.
shes my friend.
she try to understand me, but im just to complicated.
her life is simple.
mine is way too complicated.
th way i show to people who i am only take up a small dot on my heart.
just like singapore compared to USA.
i managed to find a guy to talk to comfortably.
but since then he has changed.
he become more cautious when hes with me.
i never know what problem i have with him but i really try to mend.
i have to be very nice.
i have to be not me.
but it doesnt really matter , because i really love him.
he doesnt want me to love him.
because he doesnt love me.
hurt is just a small word to describe my feelings.
i never know what lack in me because they nvr tell me.
maybe because i get hurt easily but hiding what you think about me, wont help.
envy, jealousy arent a good word to say to her.
i am her friend, why am i feeling like this.
i just want to be nice to people.
especially him.
just so hard to do so.
im going crazy thinking of this.
i want this to end.
but i just its just my fate that im born to be ugly and not loved by people,him.